I know I’ll get through this tough couple of weeks. I look back and think of the stress that the A/C caused and it’s nothing comparatively. I sure have loved the support from all of you. Coincidentally, I received two cards in the mail today – from Rebecca Longster and Becki Maxson offering support in regards to what happened LAST week. Thank you so much for that. Rebecca, that is a very calming image on the card. Did you paint that? It’s amazing. And Becki, that you for complimenting me on my work with the Extra Mile card. It makes me feel better especially in the midst of feeling like I’m dropping the ball.

I can’t put my finger on why my cousin Amy’s death has hit me so hard. We all thought it might be coming, but at 39, you don’t expect it to REALLY happen. I don’t know…so sorrow filled. One of my customers posted something about how with such bad luck recently, I should get a lottery ticket because it’s bound to turn around. So with a chuckle (because my grandmother and Amy used to get lottery tickets with my dad all the time), I got some when I had to go to the store today. Not because my thoughts were on money but because I remembered us all sitting around talking about the lottery (my dad and Amy and Maw Maw would all get riled up about people saying they never win when those same people never played). So I did it in honor of them.

The weird thing is even my chihuahua can feel my sadness. She’s been SO hyper lately, but all day has just sat in my arms calm. She’ll eat, go potty, and come crawl back to my lap and give me a kiss and just look at me.

I’m also so sorry for those of you who have conveyed that you too lost someone you loved recently. It seems almost all of us have had heartbreak and death is so final – that’s the saddest part of it all. I miss her. I love her. I hope she’s at peace and back in the arms of my grandmother, who raised her.

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